Tuesday, August 25, 2009

CIA Interrogation

I have little doubt that harsher than legal techniques were used to interrogate some bad guys under the watch of the W. presidency. I think it wrong to do so. I also think it entirely wrong to punish any man that committed those acts without the same punishment going all the way to the top of the decision making process that led to such acts.

Remember Abu Ghraib and the fall of the soldiers without any repurcussions to those above? That is as wrong as the torture itself.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Bipartisan Healthcare Reform

From what I've read and watched on TV it looks like all the plans coming out of the House are crap. When they use the term "Public Option" to mean coverage for those that can't currently afford it, rather than a plan anyone can buy in to, it's crap. Watching Anderson Cooper's "Health Crisis" or whatever it was, really showed what softies the folks at CNN are. I'm fairly disgusted by our media and our politicians on both sides of the aisle.

Here's what I think real healthcare reform could look like:

TORT REFORM
Yeah, throw that onto the table first. Get the Republicans' attention. Perturb a large donation group to the Dems. Be the first to say real change is in the works and you're willing to give something up to get something of much greater value. What form would this tort reform take? I don't know. Some sort of limits on payouts and some sort of limits on liability.

THE PUBLIC OPTION
The only real public option is one that offers a plan anyone, or any business, can buy in to. It should be offered at 20% less than current median rates. It will pay for itself in two years (maybe sooner) simply by the math of the rest of the world spending 50% less than we do.

PHARMA
We must be able to negotiate with the pharmaceutical companies. Currently almost every prescription can be bought in Canada or Europe for less than we pay here. The opening negotiation should be we will pay the price your currently charge your lowest paying customers.

DOCTORS
Can remain private if they choose to, be a part of the plan, or do both. Hospitals, ditto. Emergency services ditto. My sense is we'll be able to pay them what they currently get and make their life easier by having clear guidelines on payment practices.

Why does our legislative body need 2500 pages to write this stuff? Because they aren't writing this stuff, they're writing crap to obfuscate their lack of any real action and, in in all likelihood, the lobbyists are writing it anyway, for much the same reason.

The only way to know you've really hit a bipartisan accord on something of this scale is if both sides of the aisle feel like they gave something up they thought they couldn't live without and won something they thought they could never win. Hopefully our politicians have chutzpah to get it done.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Gay Clergy in the ELCA

This has been eight years in the making and I recall speaking with my pastor so many years ago about it. At the time he rightly pointed out that it wasn't more than something to think about and, if it did come down to the ELCA voting as they did yesterday to allow gay clergy in "lifelong, monogamous, same-gender relationships" we would then consider our options as a church.

Well, the time is here.

As a decidedly heterosexual male I'll admit I find the very thought of homosexual love-making as disgusting. Thing is, a gay male friend told me that's just how he has always felt when confronted with the idea of man/woman love-making. A gay woman told me similar things - even as a very sexually active teenager, with men, she new it was women she was drawn to. So, from a very limited poll of two I come up with support for the idea that gay is something some people are born with.

If gay is a choice, I ask when did you make yours? It was never something I had to consider.

The Old Testament speaks clearly against homosexuality but it uses the very same word, "abomination" for the eating of shellfish. It also gives the same punishment for adultery as it does for homosexual relations, stoning to death. I wager there are some that would like to return to those days. I'm not one of them.

Jesus never spoke of homosexuality but did simplify things greatly in Matthew 22:

37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' 40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."


In Luke 6 Jesus speaks to those of us that would judge others:

37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. 38Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

Rather than Leviticus, written by a man, I'll go with the red letters in my Bible. I'm a sinner like every one of you reading this. I'll not judge others beyond the societal indications of man's law and that which I sense as fairness played out well or less so.

Do I know this to be right in God's eyes? No. But it's what I'm going with.

I believe my little church will be vocal and divided on the issue, with people of my thinking being less vocal. It is very difficult, when brought up from birth being told that the Bible is perfect, to consider that there may be the touch of man on those pages. Impossible for some but not for me. I believe the Bible is "the cradle that holds Christ" and the best connection we have to God's desires for us but I'm also one much more to follow the Christ than I am Moses.

My personal theology leads me to believe that Christ was a huge change in God's relationship with His children. Whether planned from the beginning, and I know most of us believe God's plan was complete before it was acted upon, or whether God realized we couldn't live up to His plan and therefore made the new covenant that was Christ, doesn't matter. Christ was sent to forgive our sin if only we believe in Him.

I believe In Jesus, the Christ, as my savior before God come judgment day.

I love God but even there I know I fall short of what is possible.

I love my neighbors even when sometimes I don't like them very much.

I pray for peace in our church.

Difficult days ahead. May the peace of the Lord be with us all.

Friday, August 21, 2009

The Letters I Get ...

This arrived today:

On Aug 21, 2009, at 2:10 PM, (e-dress deleted for Sandra's sake) wrote:

Christian means "follwower of Christ" and all that any religion knows of God or Christ comes from the bible which is translated from the original Greek and Hebrew texts.

In the bible God calls homosexuality an abomination.That means it is worse than other sin to Him.

He says that any man that shed innocent blood should himself killed although we are to do so by a legal process but still making abortion an attrocity punishable by death.
He also says that anyone that hurts a child (any age) would be better off to end his own life.

With these points made how can there possibly be a Christian Democrat?
It's an oxymoron.

Please let me say that I am not a Republican either,I realize there is another option than the two.I'm on God's side as all politicains are greedy liars.

My family has 5 lines to the Mayflower.Miles Standish,Alden,William White and Brewster were all God-fearing men that established this nation on Biblical principles.

If you read the words to the Pledge of Allegiance you see that this country was meant to be a Republic not a Democracy.

I sincerely cannot figure how you could associate with God and NAMBLA on the same planet and the ACLU, A Democratic proponent that represents these child molesters pro-bono and has worked tirelessly to rid God from the conscience of the public including our schools.

This is not written in anger,I'm just trying to understand.

Thank you,Sandra

My response:

Sandra -

You and I have a different sense of God. I believe we are all sinners, all sin is the same in the eyes of God, and all should be welcome to the table God offers.

If you are perfect, forgive me.

If you read the founding papers of this country you will find it was based on democracy. George Washington may have wanted to be king, but that title was not given to him. I frankly don't believe in the pledge of allegiance as I pledge only to God. I serve the communities of America and other countries on mission. It's God's world we inhabit.

The GOP is full of hypocrites. Liars. Thieves. Those that steal from the poor to fatten their own wastelines. The Dems are barely better, but their sense of providing for those in need I find more in keeping with the principals of Jesus.

I believe God's law is greater than man's law. I do not believe that any law can cause a person to behave in a manner different from that which their desires draw them. Only the Holy Spirit, working in and with them, can make a person realize that there is more to this world than that which we see, and that we are beholden to our Maker to live our lives accordingly. I have no issue with homosexuals, or lesbians for that matter, that remain in committed and loving relationships. Who am I to judge when I am guilty of other sins myself? But as I said, you may be perfect, so I can't see this from your position of honor.

With your kind comments about the oxymoronic nature of the concept "Christian Democrat" I urge you to watch this video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYlZiWK2Iy8

You'll see your letter as a posting on my site. If you wish to converse further please do so there.

May the peace of the Lord be with us all,

Christian Democrat

Thursday, August 20, 2009

The Public Option ...

... is the only way that real reform will be had. Even with it we may not see the prices that the rest of the world pays for better healthcare, literally half of what we pay.

Without a public option the insurers will finagle higher prices - much as the credit card companies did in their recent "reform." Or the drug companies did when they got our government to make it illegal to import their drugs back into this country.

One of the deals for healthcare "reform" that is now on the table allows the insurers a 35% profit. That may be the bill that has the insurers' input, ya think? Las Vegas casinos, by law, can only take 25%. Atlantic city, 17%.

And some of our politicians think this OK!

Fight for the public option - basically a "Medicare" for everyone. It will cover those that don't have coverage now and MUST offer the same policy to every man, woman, child and business that wants it.

When I was in retail, a 10-12% profit was considered really good. Hit 18% and you got a nice bonus. That is the exact math that gets you to a 35% profit kicking of huge bonuses, luxury cruises and vacations, limos and private jets, Chateaubriand and Chateauneuf-Du-Pape along the way. We're paying for it, all of us, in our own healthcare costs and in the costs of every product we buy made here.

What part of saving a trillion dollars a year don't the Dems want to talk about?

You're being gamed, people. By the insurers, pharma, and yeah, sorry to say, our politicians, too. The only problem is, the odds are better in Vegas and I rarely leave there with more than I arrived.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Hillary in 2012

If "the best orator of our time" and the guy that this country gave a mandate like few other in memory can't get a public option (not to mention universal healthcare) passed I will vote for someone with the balls for a fight.

Obama! Don't give up. Don't give in. Be the Change we voted for.

One trillion dollars a year is wasted in the health insurance industry. It goes out in the form of salary, bonuses, perks and into the pockets of the middle-men and -women. Yes, we need to kill that industry.

The public option would start that death. Bad politics to say so, but true. It needs to die before it sucks the blood out of each of us.

Obama - pass this legislation or go down as one of the great failures of all time. I cannot believe you would waste this opportunity.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Lou Pritchett - Another GOP Mouthpiece

... and of the worst sort. Snopes tells me this letter from Lou Pritchett, formerly the bigwig at P&G, is real. The letter itself tells me he's bucking to be on with Hannity and crowd more often. This is propaganda of the highest sort, the bigger the lie the more easily believed. If you're going to use scare tactics it sure pays to use the word "scared" as many times as possible. I've taken his single-statement paragraphs and interspersed by own responses between them. Mine will be italicized.

AN OPEN LETTER TO PRESIDENT OBAMA

Dear President Obama:

You are the thirteenth President under whom I have lived and unlike any of the others, you truly scare me.

This is a setup line that, like so much of the Republican extreme right wing rhetoric is ... To scare us, to scare us of the possibility of change.

You scare me because after months of exposure, I know nothing about you.

Then you need to do more research, you that leads the most research crazed company in the nation. Anyone ever try to do an ad for P&G? They throw out three of every four produced because the don’t test well. Why not just try to tell the truth about your products and let them stand on their own merits? Have you not realized that Honda is a great company because of great products and ads that very simply point that out?

You scare me because I do not know how you paid for your expensive Ivy League education and your upscale lifestyle and housing with no visible signs of support.

Then you need to do more research, you that claims ignorance for things that could be learned if one chose to put some time into it. Have you ever heard of Pell Grants? Loans? Scholarships? Summer work? Or do you think the Bin Laden family helped pay for it? I doubt that, they are the strongest of friends with the Bush clan. As for his post-college years he did earn income and his wife was doing quite well. As I recall he only paid off his student loans a few years ago. Hmm - productive member of society repaying society for what was loaned him. A responsible black man, wait, a responsible RADICAL (in your eyes) black man! No wonder you're beliefs are shaken.

You scare me because you did not spend the formative years of youth growing up in America and culturally you are not an American.

Bullfeathers. Obama is more in touch with the American people than most of our politicians GOP and Dems included – it’s just an America that they don’t care about, the America that can’t or won’t contribute to their campaigns.

You scare me because you have never run a company or met a payroll.

Mr. Pritchett, you scare me because all you care about is the payroll, your own not your company's. A company's payroll is important, yes, but that payroll is what allows people to buy stuff and all that has been happening for the last 30 years is corporations taking jobs to countries with cheaper labor and closing plants here. You’re fine with payroll as long as it is as low as possible and without care for the nation where you sell most of your goods.

You scare me because you have never had military experience, thus don't understand it at its core.

Perhaps you can tell me exactly how Febreze works before you speak again? Having intelligence – which I define as the ability to intake new information and act upon it accordingly – along with THE BEST MILITARY in the WORLD, and ditto on the military leadership, makes Obama a fine Commander-in-Chief. Who do you think pushed the "Go" button on the Somali pirates, saving captain, crew and ship? Diplomacy is a wonderful thing, especially when a big stick is occasionally whacked upside the opponents head.

You scare me because you lack humility and 'class', always blaming others.

Bullfeathers. Perhaps you should look in the mirror, Mr. Pritchett.

You scare me because for over half your life you have aligned yourself with radical extremists who hate America and you refuse to publicly denounce these radicals who wish to see America fail.

Bullfeathers again. Anyone who worked in the communities Obama did had the same encounters. They were alliances for good beyond the issues of those people in the past. The founding fathers, in leaving England, were radicals. That said, yes, there were some radicals that went too far. They should be punished according to our laws and most have.

You scare me because you are a cheerleader for the 'blame America' crowd and deliver this message abroad.

This is one point that I ALMOST agree with, Mr. Pritchett, and I blame Obama for getting his verbiage wrong. While he NEVER actually blames America, some hear it as such. He should be more specific in placing blame in the greed of companies like yours. Worth noting – I own your stock and you aren’t the worst of the bunch. At least you are in a competitive marketplace still, unlike the medical/Wall Street crowd that sleep together like the folks of Sodom and Gomorrah.

You scare me because you want to change America to a European style country where the government sector dominates instead of the private sector.

Not true. We just want parity, an even playing ground, rather than the collusion that takes free trade into a zone of immoral behavior. Remember Enron? That’s what happens every day in the financial, healthcare, energy and who knows what other markets, too. I am a believer in free markets. At the highest levels we do not have them here.

You scare me because you want to replace our health care system with a government controlled one.

Yes, we do. If it can save our country a trillion dollars a year, which it can by reasonable thinking, who wouldn’t want it?

You scare me because you prefer 'wind mills' to responsibly capitalizing on our own vast oil, coal and shale reserves.

Yes, we do. If we were smart we’d be making use of alternative energy not only to decrease our level of pollution but, like the Chinese, we’d be saving our own reserves for when, some day, the middle east runs dry. I look forward to that day.

You scare me because you want to kill the American capitalist goose that lays the golden egg which provides the highest standard of living in the world.

The best standard of living for you and your cronies perhaps. As for the middle class, you sold us out when you took manufacturing jobs overseas chasing cheaper labor. The weight of your mansions is crushing the roofs of the downsized homes the middle class is moving to.

You scare me because you have begun to use 'extortion' tactics against certain banks and corporations.

Ummm, sir, your boy Georgie W and his folks in the GOP were asleep at the wheel only to wake up and hand over the nations coffers to Wall Street. The Dems were part of that problem, too, but Lehman Brothers went down because Hank Paulson didn’t like them. The Dems, and Obama specifically, had nothing to do with it. The GOP started the party and bolted out the back door when things got out of hand. Are your pockets full of party favors, I hope?

You scare me because your own political party shrinks from challenging you on your wild and irresponsible spending proposals.

Our economy was screwed before Obama was elected. The GOP started the bailouts as “The Only Way to Save that Which is TO BIG TO FAIL.” How stupid do you think we are to not remember that?

You scare me because you will not openly listen to or even consider opposing points of view from intelligent people.

That is pure, sorry it ain’t feathers anymore and it stinks to high .... Well you get the idea. More lies from a GOP pundit on his soapbox. I'll also question your definition of intelligent people. I think you may mean other spewers of the GOP line that lack any ability to see beyond their own pocketbooks.

You scare me because you falsely believe that you are both omnipotent and omniscient.

Mr. Pritchett, you scare-mongering piece of fecal matter, on what merit do you base your statement of what Obama believes about himself?

You scare me because the media gives you a free pass on everything you do.

Have you NEVER watched Fox news? Oh, right, you’re a CNN guy. Oh, wait, I just read your next statement which points to the very media that craps on everything Obama does simply because they want ratings ... And there are about 5 million Americans who, for whatever reason, actually watch and believe the bile that comes from those shows. Some of those are paid to attend town hall meetings and get ugly angry.

You scare me because you demonize and want to silence the Limbaughs, Hannitys, O'Relllys and Becks who offer opposing, conservative points of view.

As I said, here’s the media with the opposing voice and, as I recall, Obama even sat with The Worst Person in The World – Bill O’Reilly. And you mis-spelled his name by the way.

You scare me because you prefer controlling over governing.

Nice framing (the use of specific words that push a person’s buttons) but yes, we need to control spending, we need to control collusion ridden businesses, and we need to control our enemies. Perhaps we should try to govern the Taliban?

Finally, you scare me because if you serve a second term I will probably not feel safe in writing a similar letter in 8 years.

Then you are a coward and a quitter, sir, and not worthy of the time of day.

Lou Pritchett wrote the non-italicized letter.

ChristianDemocrat wrote the italicized portions and will add one thought - change takes courage. We're all a little scared out here and the GOP folks are playing it to the hilt. Suck it up folks, we're in for a long ride.

Healthcare Again & Again Healthcare



I believe we need universal healthcare in this country for a number of reasons with #1 not being the sense of need to provide care to all those that are currently not covered. No, I’m more greedy for all of us than that. We need universal healthcare reform to bring our economics in line with the rest of the world.

In 2005 our Gross Domestic Product was about $12 trillion of which we spend abut $2 trillion on healthcare. That is about 20% of our entire economy going to healthcare. The other major industrialized nations that have universal healthcare spend from 6.8 to 8.9% of their GDP on healthcare. If, as I’ve said elsewhere, we spend half of what we’re spending now we could include dental and vision coverage, too.

We are getting ripped off hugely by the medical consortium. American pharmaceutical companies sell their products to other nations for less than we can buy them for. Our government protects them by making it illegal to import drugs made by American companies and shipped north or overseas. That, my friends, is collusion between our government and a business that contributes huge amounts to the politicians campaigns.

Why do they sell them to other countries for less than we can buy them for here? Because those countries set the price and say take it or leave it. One pharma connected friend tells me they sell their drugs for about half of what they sell them for here. My suggestion that we pay the same price brought up the point that then the company would go broke. Coming back with the idea that a price be found that provides for company profits that is charged equally to all buyers sounded fair to my friend.

I heard today that Obama may be walking away from the “Public Option” of a government sponsored coverage plan. I pray that isn’t so. While not universal healthcare, it is a step towards it. That is why the fight is so intense from the GOP. They know that their contributions will drop dramatically if we ever get to universal healthcare. A good number of Dems are on that same bandwagon. Shame on all of them.

So, if universal healthcare could save the nation a trillion dollars a year, what would we do with that money?

Very simply, businesses large and small look to benefit the most. The average paid in 2005 for a business to provide health coverage for an employee with a family of four was a bit above $11,000.00. What if that dropped to $6.000.00? A business of 100 employees just saved a half million dollars.

Very simply, our government needs to provide a healthcare plan that anyone can buy into for a good bit less than the average paid in 2005. It can be done and needn’t cost taxpayers anything in the long haul. Get enough people on board and it will be self-sustaining. What business wouldn’t take a 35-50% cut in healthcare costs?!?

Why don’t we see the healthcare industry making a trillion dollars a year in profits right now? Because they hide it beautifully, and share it amongst themselves generously. My outrage spike when my brother-in-law invited my wife and I to join he and his wife on a cruise that he “won” for having great sales figures. We would only have to pay the taxes on the cruise – about $8000.00. And I would have had to buy a tuxedo because every night was dinner at the captain’s table. They sent 120 couples on that cruise. Just one example. I’m sickened.

Greed, after survival, is the greatest motivator in human nature. In the medical insurance profession, as over on Wall Street, greed is seen as good. It can be, but when brought to such a level as we are currently seeing in the healthcare industry, it should be seen as unethical, morally repugnant.

There is no monopoly in the healthcare industry, certainly not among the insurers, no not them. But there sure is collusion, whether provable or not. Simpy look at the similarity in prices and you know it must be.

Medical insurance companies need to have their policies revoked by a people that don’t care if they live or die.

Fair enough?

We MUST have a public option or we've lost and Obama can't do what we elected him to do.

Which is yet one more reason the GOP is so against healthcare reform. They must win or they have lost even more.

The GOP has nothing to stand on but "No." If they agree with anything the Dems put forth then the Dems will win in 2010 and beyond. Only by disagreeing with everything Obama and the Dems put on the table do they have a chance of being right in the end. They don't care about the American people, the economy, or anything but their own personal wallets. They are fighting viciously, with lies screamed from their pulpits every day of the week. The need to be ignored and/or beaten into submission by a strong voice heard from the people of this country.

Please write your congressperson and your senators. Tell them what you think. Do you have 5 minutes to help transform America? All you need to say is "I want a public option for healthcare and really want that to become universal healthcare by the attrition of THE BASTARDS that have ripped me off my whole life." Or ... better still, use your own words of similar effect. ;>)

Friday, August 14, 2009

Right Wing Lies Perfectly Shown

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John Stewart and his crew do it again - quite perfectly trapping the GOP pundits in their own lies. Here, Glenn Beck, the Homer Simpson of the extreme right, shows just how disingenuous he really is.

Mr. Beck and the like don't care about anything but ratings. They feed off the fears of their viewers and fan the flames of ignorance among them. Yes, ignorance, or perhaps it's racism. There's still plenty of that to go around in this melting pot we're so proud of.

If ignorance is bliss, why are Glenn Beck's viewers so angry? Because of him and his like.

Freedom of speech is a wonderful thing but their should be accountability for actions taken in the public square that are obvious lies.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Universal Health Care

I should be less stunned by the crap coming from the GOP about the health care plan(s) that are coming forward. Lies. Deception. Scare tactics by masters of the game.

There will be no cutting of services to the old simply because they are old.

There will be no requirement to sign on to the public option if you have insurance you already like.

There will be no requirement to join a policy that allows others to have abortions.

and there should be no requirement to join at all. If you want to go without healthcare, you should be allowed to. Unfortunately, I think there is such a requirement in most of the legislation being written. That's wrong.

It is, however, better than what we've got, which is robber-baron all over again. It's collusion at the highest levels - among the companies and among our legislators. It must be broken.

A libertarian friend (who once said "I disagree with just about everything you say" as stood on his porch keeping en eye on an approaching brush fire and chatting the auto bailouts a few months back) made the point that "government can't run anything" and that's his opinion. My counter was that the corporations are running it fine for them now but it sure is killing us.

We spend 17% of our gross national product on healthcare. Other industrialized nations spend about half that on their universal systems. As the dollars spent here, I am told is $2.5 TRILLION dollars per year, our savings would be in the neighborhood of a trillion dollars PER YEAR. Businesses would love it - their costs would go down.

And yeah, I rounded up on what we might spend - I want dental and vision coverage, too. No French teeth here!

But seriously folks - if all this legislation is to create an option that you don't have to make use of, what's all the fuss?

Do you think your healthcare will cost more? It won't.

Do you think your healthcare will be of lesser service? Our government already runs some of the best healthcare in the world - Medicare and the Veterans Administration.

Do you think the doctors and hospitals will be glad to be rid of Blue Cross and the like? I know mine will.

Holding On

I've been gone a while. It takes a good deal of effort to reinvent one's profession. Time is precious and writing most of the pertinent stuff here, for me, takes a good bit of time. This isn't one of those occasions.

It's scary time for many. Neighbors out of work. Church friends, too. Making about half what I made last year and that wasn't great, I realized that Einstein's classic definition of insanity applied firmly to me - repeating the same thing and expecting different results. So I zigged when others zagged. It has yet to pay off.

I am thankful to God for all that I am, for all that He gives me, and angry at Him at the same time - a young father died unnecessarily a few weeks ago, a child of the church a couple months before that. I'm thankful, but probably depressed. As I sat and prayed a few minutes ago I poured my guts out and heard nothing but the fizz of the soda can on the table next to me. Might be my issue, not His.

My church is about to go into a tizzy over sexuality. The ELCA will be making a statement soon basically saying that the local churches have to decide if they will allow gay marriage, gay pastors, openly gay members. My church is full of people young and old, but predominantly conservative and proudly so. I'm deciding whether to stay and speak what needs to be said, or simply go if it comes to that. I'm not sure I have the energy for it.

They've been saying the Bible is perfect lately. God's Word, kept perfect by the hand of man. Yeah, right. I believe God could make the Bible perfect if He wanted to, but I also believe he's letting us have our own run at a lot of things, the Bible included. I believe the Bible holds God's Word and His words. It's the best connection we've got, but I find flaws, the touch of man's ego and arrogance. How could that not be!

I believe in God. In Jesus, His Son, who walked this planet as a man, my savior come judgment day and my guide in each moment. I know I'm flawed just as every one of us is and I know I'm better than I was before I got to know Jesus but I am still flawed. And still God loved me enough to give the life of his own son, and I'll say it was as if God himself was on that cross. God opened up His covenant to allow for His ... dare I say errors ... in making us. It's a confused thought, really, and I think it's something we aren't meant to or capable of understanding, but why would God think Eden would turn out one way and get all angry when it didn't?

The sermon this past Sunday was almost an apologetic for some of the more recent rhetoric about Biblical perfection and innuendo of conservative nature. It was titled, "But...I Don't Understand" and our pastor was saying much the same as I feel - there is so much that I don't understand about God.

But I'm holding on.